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Spinning Plates

Recently, we had some friends over for dinner. As custom, before ending the evening, we pray together about what is going on in our lives. One of our friends received a visual while praying, of a hammer and a nail. As she prayed about it later, she felt God saying that He has given us all the tools we need. She commented to me about how I need to press into God more, and out of that place of intimacy, the outflow will be ministry, family, marriage, etc. As I prayed today, I felt God impressing upon me that I am not pressing into Him. What am I focused on? Today has been crazy, with potty training and ministry, I feel like I can't keep all my "plates" spinning. So, after showering during naptime, I sat before the Lord, verbally setting down all the plates I feel like I have to maintain "spinning" in my life. Back to the question of what am I focused on. God showed me that I am so much more worried about what others think of me, and how do I compare, what do they think of me, do I measure up? I will never measure up, even if I do, in my head, where the enemy places lies, I will never measure up. So, the question becomes... How do I put those plates down, to only focus on pressing into God, and wanting to measure up to His standards? Not sure...

Potty Training, a Painfully Slow Process...

We have started the potty training process yet again. The memories of working with Garrett have not faded, sadly. We are trying a new approach, starting with lots of prayer, grace and patience. Thanks to the suggestions of Kelly Bettinger, we are using pretzels and Kool-Aid to aid in the peeing process. We will see. If you can, pray for us, that Joshua picks up on this super fast! Any suggestions welcome!

Dayton Air Force Museum

Saturday we went to the Dayton Air Force Museum as a family. Saturdays are our Sabbath and Family Day. The boys had a great time, and got to sit in a cockpit and a spacesuit! I would recommend it, it is free!

The Beach Waterpark Holiday Fest

Thanks to Carol Venn, we were able to attend Holiday Fest at the Beach Waterpark, for free! We had a great time, despite the cold rain. The boys fed a baby goat, by bottle, Joshua and I rode the Merry-Go-Round, and both boys rode ponies with Daddy! Thanks so much Carol! You rock big time!

the domino effect of SIN...

Ministry has proven overwhelming. I cannot let it "roll off my back" as I hear of marriages being destroyed and lives being crushed. I carry the burden. I needed a long walk today to vent my frustrations to God. Why did He create us, knowing full well that Satan, our enemy,would pursue us endlessly? That just doesn't feel like love, not today. Recently, God has been preparing us for full-time ministry on campus by using friends as tools for creating boundaries. This week, we were shown that there was a need to further protect our marriage. No matter how much I love another family, Todd must minister to the males, I minister to the females. No one of the opposite sex can be in the house when only one of us is here, even with kids home. It left open the door for Satan to whisper into Todd's ear lies that he just couldn't shake... Even more, no long phone conversations, because they foster too much intimacy. That was shocking to me, because I just want to be a listening friend. The line has been drawn, and we are working to obey.
As I walked, I reflected on the effect sin has in our lives. Each decision triggers another, opening the door to deeper obedience to Christ, or sadly, opening the door to disobedience, and allowing Satan a foothold. In my mindseye, I saw sin, depicted as an altar to worship. Just like in Old Testament times, something must be burning on the top of that altar. What is burning? Those people, dreams, relationships- that are affected because I chose sin rather than God's way. They are sitting on top, burning into ash that will become marred forever. In marriages, kids are being sacrificed for so many cheap desires. I began to ask God, what was my altar, my sin? Were my kids suffering, my marriage? I would like to say God said, "No, Tami, you're doing great." Not so much. Each time I sacrifice my time with God, for laundry, a nap, Facebook, or this website, I am starting a domino effect in my life. Where it ends I do not know. It scared me though. How will it change my marriage, Garrett and Joshua? How will it change me in the future? Without a doubt, it makes it harder for me to hear from the Holy Spirit.
God has really been pressing me about protecting my marriage. He has been blessing us, just recently, redeeming an area that really reflected more death than life since our wedding day. Another insight from God about the domino effect. Since we didn't wait for each other physically, we both brought in baggage we didn't know we were carrying. Eight years later, we are still dealing with the effects. It has been eight years of praying for God to heal us. Praise God for the healing, but I wish I understood the domino effect as a teenager. Satan truly deserves the name, The Deceiver. Once that first domino falls, the deception becomes harder and harder to recognize. Where am I being deceived? Where is my unconfessed sin? Well, I am off for a quiet time. Time to wait on the Holy Spirit's voice.